What the hell I'm doing in this apartment?! How come I'm here?
I rubbed my temples again trying to reconstruct past events, but the memory again overthrew me in a dark abyss. There was only a vacuum. Not a single recollection. As if I'd never existed before that evening at all.
WHO AM I? WHAT IS MY NAME?
I was seized by panic because I couldn't find the answers to these questions.
Ok, breathe deeper! The memory will come back to you!
I sat on the bed rubbing my temples as if it could help me. But no matter how hard I was forcing my memory, I couldn't catch anything from my past.
After getting over my panic attack I came closer to the mirror and inspected myself.
My eyes were incredible blue like shininh sapphires but before I could appreciate it, a closer look revealed the contact lens. I removed them in haste and stared at me with one brown eye and another one green-grey.
«Supri-i-i-i-ise!» flashed in my head.
I tried to focus on examiming me but two multicolored eyes were taking my mind off.
'I'm... My name is...'
My memory was still keeping silence deceitfully without giving me any hint.
Did I get hog-drunk that now I remember nothing?!
But I didn't look like I had gotten a bad case of skull cramps. I even had managed not to muss up my silk floor-length terra-cotta gown. But after all, I could be drunk - I noticed a spot of red wine on the skirt.
If I'm so overdressed, does it mean that I was hanging out?
I closed my eyes and racked my memory one more time but again without results.
What day of the week is today? What month?
I looked out of the window. The wind was tousling furiously the bare branches of the trees, and the dirty-grey scraps of snow in faint light of lanterns were melting on the dark ground.
November? February? March?
I decided to check the apartment.
Maybe I will find here the prompts? Perhaps there is someone else?
I half-opened the door. There was dead silence in the obscurity of the corridor — no TV's noise, no someone's steps in the next room, no sounds at all. Only the crows were cawing outside the window.
I leaved the bedroom on tiptoe. The clock hands were ticking steadily about somewhere. I moved towards it in the dark and got into a front room with an uncurtained window that opened up a dark sky.
'Is anybody here?'
Only the silence was a reply.
Moments later, when my eyes got used to the darkness, I saw a silhouette in the armchair. Someone was sitting there silent, ignoring my question. I felt creepy.
'I'm sorry, I don't know how come I'm here. Could you please tell me where I am?'
But the silhouette didn't answer. It scared me.
What if it's not safe here and this person is going to attack me?
I tried frantically to feel for a switch and flipped it. As soon as the light illuminated the room I screamed with horror.
I saw in the armchair a man with his throat cut. Blood had drenched his white shirt. His glassy eyes were staring at me with frozen astonishment. He was young, not older than thirty.
I hung back looking at the dead in a hypnotic trance.
Oh my God, while I was sleeping, someone killed him! He could kill me too! Maybe I'm still alive because I was asleep and didn't see a murderer? Or he didn't know that there was someone else in the apartment?
My thoughts were running around my head like a scalded cat. My heart was in my mouth as if after long-distance running.
Near the couch, on the small table, I noticed a bottle "Moët&Chandon" and two glasses. One of them had prints of purple lipstick — the same color as were on my lips.
So we were drinking champagne together, then I went to the bedroom and fell asleep right in the dress, and at that very moment, someone got into the apartment and killed the guy. Someone whom he knew well judging by his amazed look. The murderer caught him unawares getting the knife, and the poor fellow didn't have any chance to defend himself.
Stop!
An awful guess stroke me. I looked at a dark spot on my dress.
We were drinking champagne, not red wine! What if... what if it's his blood?!
Was it ME who killed him?!
My legs became rubbery. I drooped along the wall and hunkered down.
If it were me who killed him, my hands would be in the blood! Or I murdered him, washed my hands and went to sleep as if nothing had happened?!
Am I a coldblooded murderer?!
And where is a knife?
Overcoming fear, I crawled to the armchair and inspected a place of the murder.
There was no knife. But the killer could throw it out of the window.
If I killed him, why didn't I bolt the scene and went to sleep instead? It doesn't make sense.
No, it wasn't me! I could drink red wine at the party and soil the dress there.
Could this guy give me a spiked drink? Maybe that's why I crashed out. And at that moment the murderer came here, and it was him who took away the knife.
I tried to persuade myself that I was not guilty in his death, but I hardly believed it myself.
What should I do now? They will charge me with murder!
Suddenly a new thought stroke me.
Where is my cell? I can call someone from my contact list, and they will tell me who I am. They will help me!
I rushed to the hallway to check my bag.
Bingo!
I saw a satin purse on the table near the entrance. I grabbed it quickly and opened it with a sinking heart.
No cell, no documents. Only a bunch of keys, the perfume "Narciso Rodriguez" and two 5-thousand ruble notes in a small pocket.
Disappointed I threw away a purse on the floor. The keys slipped out and slid on the parquet.
I took and put them to the keyholes. Both of them fitted the locks.
I opened wide a closet in the hallway and found there women's coats and footwear mixed up with the men's ones.
Do I live here?!
Maybe this dead guy is not a stranger? Perhaps I love him? Did I use to fall asleep in his arms on that round bed every night, to make breakfast for him, to spend together the evenings on the couch before this large plasma TV, to watch the shows laughing?
Who is he?
I went back to the front room and checked every locker. I wanted to find any documents, letters, bills... Something that could have the names.
But again I felt disappointed. The search didn't give any results. Nothing! Even no photos.
No way that I have no cell!
Maybe I didn't take it to the party because I had forgotten it at home? And I usually don't take my ID documents with me. So they must be at home.
But they are not in this apartment. Does it mean that I don't live here? Or did I lose it at the party?... Or did the murderer take it?!
I need to leave this place. But where to go?
I had a choice – to stay with the body until the police arrested me or to carry the banner.
As Thomas Jefferson said, I prefer dangerous freedom over peaceful slavery in a jail.
I grabbed in a hurry some clothes from the wardrobe, put it in a travel bag and changed into the jeans and a turtleneck sweater. In the hallway, I put on a fur coat and the low-heeled boots. After thinking for a while, I decided to take my soiled dress with me and to get rid of it on my way. Just in case. I convolved it, and I was going to push it into a side pocket of the bag when suddenly I found there the wads of C-notes.
'Wow!!! Most welcome!'
I tucked the keys and rubles from my purse into the pocket of the jeans, and I was already going to leave the apartment, but then I decided to clean my fingerprints. Just in case. But a few moments later I stopped.
What's the point? If I live here, of course, my fingerprints are everywhere.
However, I took the glass with the lipstick prints and also tucked it into a side pocket of the bag, then brought another one from the kitchen with the help of the dishtowel.
While putting a new glass on the table my eyes met the body once again. He kept on staring at me in surprise, and his unblinking look made me shrink in horror.
Poor guy! He was handsome. For sure, the girls were crazy about him. Could he think while opening a bottle of champagne that he would be dead in a couple of hours?
I knew I should close his eyes, but I couldn't' make myself touch him.
'Rest in peace!' I whispered.
I was going to leave the room when suddenly I heard a feeble buzzing noise. It looked like a cellphone vibrating about somewhere!
I strained my ears and heard the sound from under an armchair.
Maybe the guy's phone dropped there? That's why the murderer didn't take it with him.
Or it's my cell??
I pushed my hand under an armchair and got out Samsung with one missed call from Stas. I hoped there was no password.
Bingo! I got lucky!
At that very moment when the display got unlocked and I was going to examine the cell, I heard a noise from the hallway.
Someone was fumbling with a lock and trying to get in!
I jumped to my feet and froze up listening. In silence, I could hear my heart beating.
WHAT SHALL I DO NEXT?!